Mum I finally managed to write you a poem, its in the style of a letter. A Letter to My Mum. Hi there Mum, sorry I didn't write to you before. But it's hard to find the words to say what I need to and more. Your grandsons send their love, they send it every day. I know you know they love you but I'll say it anyway. They are trying hard at school and always do their best. They want to make you proud of them each time they take a test. They know deep down you've always felt that way. But I know how it feels longing to hear you say. Wish I could send you pictures of the things that you should see. Of grandsons you already know, of Bailey,my brothers, my dad and me. It was snowing here the other week, we all felt the chill I warned the boys to be careful like us mothers always will. I couldn't stop them getting hurt but I still shared their pain. The bruised knees, the cuts and sores, we were crying once again. Mum, did I tell you the last time we were together just how beautiful you looked, that I will remember it forever. You were laying there so peaceful, no pain showed in your face. Dad said you looked young again as we all left that place. Leaving you there was hard, I longed in my heart to stay. I left you yet another letter without knowing what to say. I hope somehow you read it, maybe sitting on a cloud. Did you read it to the angels, saying my words out loud. I could never say them to you, afraid of how you'd feel. Scared to do more damage, scared to never heal. But the pain of saying goodbye Mum can never be as bad As sitting here regretting the time we never had. I tried to say goodbye that day everyone was around. Even spoke in front of them, think you might have been a little proud. Mum were the flowers perfect, were the songs the ones you love? Did you like the vicar, were the words we said enough? Let me know that you're not far away, just somewhere you found peace. The stress and worries you had here no longer bother you in the least. Mum can I just ask a favour, whenever you have time. Please send me some spare peace you can to heal this heart of mine. Before I go, let me say once again how much I will miss you Mum till I see you again.